You push everyone away because you can't deal, because you don't want to land yourself in sticky situations. Because it's so much easier to be alone away from those problems. Eventually you'll be left behind, because no one bothers enough to stay with you or move you along. But why complain? That's what you wanted wasn't it? You want to feel the pain, the hurt of being forsaken. So that if things don't turn out the way you want it it's others' fault, but not really. You started it. But then the argument is that how you end up alone was a decision you made, a choice. Then you aren't at fault again. Oh but you're in anguish just the way you're used to. Because being at the bottom of the world, you get to feel the high at times and the crash is so much gentler. So there you stay, like in the past, for now and maybe forever.
Hurt - Johnny Cash